User Profile

My name is Mariah. I can be difficult and simple at the same time. My friends mean everything to mean, and jsut the fact that they take the time to uncover what im really about shows that they are true friends.I don't judge people by their looks but. I like people who aren't like everyone else. I fucking hate labels and sterotypes although I am guilty of using them. I don't like admitting im wrong but If i make a mistake i will own up to it. I've never been mean to someone without apoligizing. My conscience doens't exist but my heart does. My heart has been broken and i believe its made of glass. Please don't break it. I have low self esteem, please dont abuse it.I love writing poetry and reading it too. I'm the most open minded person you will ever meet and I dont take bullying lightly. Say what you want about me, i honestly dont give a shit. But even if i do act like im indestructable, everyone knows im not.I live for my own dreams and making other peoples dreams come true. I love helping people, with ther problems and stuff but i cant be your crutch. I cant hold you up. I've spent my life holding the world on my sholders, and im too afraid to let go. There are things about me that you wont understand. For example what i do to myself, how i present myself and things like that. I don't feel pain, people think thats weird. But the truth is i do. It just goes straight to my heart and not to my skin. I've been in counceling.. for i dont know how long. And I strongly believe that no one can help me. I've peirced my lip& belly button. But I didnt take proper care of my belly button so it got infected. The sight of my own blood doesn't scare me, but other peoples does. I'm SUPER afraid of needles, just thinking about them makes me shiver. I have some eating issues... things that come and go. But things i cant forget. I love shopping, and riding horses. I'm the kind of person who really likes school, only because i look at it like an escape from my home. My home is fine too, but somtimes, when your in one place for too long.. you jsut go crazy. I hate it when people crack their fingers. I'm a veggitarian and i love it. My veiws on life change like the weather. If i type something very long and it gets deleted I will scream. I love all types of music. execpt some rap.I pick at people, not pick on them and not in a literal since. I just look at people, and see them for what they really are. I look at them from their core, how they cope with life. I pity some people. But I wish to make ther lives better before making my own worse. Saying mean things to me wont hurt me much, jsut because of this shell i have seperating me from the world. I know that if i let others in,that they will hurt me. But im not really afriad anymore. Chances are, I love more things than you, hate less people and have less goals in my life. The behaviour of people both sickenes and amazes me. I'm not at all ordinary, My style is my own. My life is mine to cherish or destroy. I am who I am, and no one can change me.
My favorite words are things like "catastrophic" and "Anachronsim"
My favorite songs are thigns that I can relate to or have a good beat
I am drawn to peoples uniqueness and individuality, I frown upon sameness and bullying
I am not at all what people say.
And I like it that way.
Oh and by the way, when I type, i make huge mistakes. I'll try to type one word and a completely different word will show up...

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